seriously

when will we catch a break?

so estrogen and progesterone levels were oh so good in february...had the surgery in march and after the removal of the endo and the dr. felt sure everything would work out just fine this month...wrong-o!

now my levels aren't cooperating. what the heck is wrong with my body? can't it just all work together for once...all be on the same page...get the same memo...whatever!?!?

my estrogen is the lowest it's been in any of the 5 cycles (including the horrendous cycle last november). my progesterone is really good though and because of that they are starting me on estrogen patches (1/day) from now until my beta next wednesday the 21st.

i'll go back this friday for another estrogen and progesterone level check.

i've been doing well not analyzing anything symptom-wise this time around and staying rather calm with no stress! i've been busying myself with work, home stuff, home business, etc. of course now that i think about it...i'm not so sure i've been just doing a good job at not thinking about my symptoms, but i'm pretty sure my bb's are not sore at all (just the very slightest but that's most likely just their normal thing to do for the ginormous size they are anyway) and there is little to no cramping at all.

i've weaned off the zoloft, quit caffeine, have been drinking a ton more water and continuing to eat healthy. basically doing everything i should to make sure i gave my body every possible chance for this to work. who was i kidding? apparently i would have had better luck if i were unmarried, an alcoholic, smoked pot and injected heroin i guess!

i'm going to drown my sorrows in my 6 piece nugget meal now...i don't seem to think it's going to make a difference.